Simple Life.

Move on, move on, time is accelerating
Drive on, all night, traffic lights and one ways
Move on, move on parking violations waiting
Turn off the car, breathe the air, let's stay here

I'll kiss you awake, and we'll have time
To know our neighbors all by name, and every star at night
We'll weave our days together like waves, and particles of light

I want to live this
I want to live
I want to live a simple life.

Interweb Inspiration

Off to EDCD.
praying for some relief.



"You have avoided action by telling yourself why you can't or why you won't. Now use that same power to tell yourself why you can & why you will."

(love this quote. Don't love that I found it on Amanda Byne's twitter page:)Ugh, I need to get my life back. I think my brain is melting from the interweb.)

Transformers?

This is getting quite ridiculous to say the least.
I have not fallen asleep before 5 am for the past week.
I have been having the strangiest/silliest dreams too.

Last night I had a dream worthy of a 10 year old boy who sleeps in a race car bed and watches saturday morning cartoons.

In my dream these weird Transformers type robot things took over the city and were killing people left and right. My companion and I (I really wish I could remember who was with me!) kept trying to "defeat" them with these light sabers that I just happend to have lying around (haha) but nothing could stop those damn things! So most of my dream was just me hiding under a bed hoping these robots wouldn't see me and occasionally trying to light saber them but failing each time. I think eventually in a moment of lucidity from my silly dream I must have decided that I could change my dream because, damnit it was MY dream. So I promptly dreamed that we discovered the robots' weakness and were able to defeat them finally!

Silly dream, yes. Symbolic? Perhaps.

I feel like I am fighting my own stupid Transformers robot right now. And it is winning. I give the occasional stab at defeating it, but mostly I just hide under the bed. I really do want to deafeat this. I want my life back. I want to come out from under the bed. I want to tell that robot who's boss. But mostly I just want to be happy again.

It's all happening now.
And I guess it really needs to.
But it still doesn't make it any easier.

Cuz you are beautiful

Wanted to believe in all the words that i was speaking
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that i was telling
And all the playful misspellings
And every bite I gave you left a mark

Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did and so did I that day

All I see are dark grey clouds
In the distance moving closer with every hour
So when you ask "was something wrong?"
That i think "you're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."

So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more