Hmph.

"I mean if you're able to go into a collapse with all your might, why can't you use the same energy to stay well and busy?"

ugh.

I though it had passed. I was waking up more hopeful. I was sleeping through the night. I was making an effort.

There are some mornings when I wake up feeling like I might actually have the strength to make it through the day. Then there are mornings where I barely have the strength to make it out of the bed.

I am looking for consistency.