you look really tired.

Sometimes all you need is your best friend, a car, and a nice cryfest.


[Maybe this feeling is called growing up.]

Family

I am sitting at the Columbine house with Cam and Julia. Cam and I are making dinner and we are going to have margaritas on the deck...I am so thankful that we were all able to work everything out, and I am realizing how lucky I am to have my family:) I am actually really looking forward to being able to hang out with these guys a lot more this summer!

Done with finals. Done with school....All I can say is I would like to take my mulligan:)

Summer is here. And I am grateful for more than I can say.

Thanks?

'Your life would be a lot easier if you would just go with the flow."

I hate that you are right. I hate that despite everything,  you are one of the few who know me best. 

And I can't get that conversation out of my head. Maybe I am the cause of my problems? As anyone who knows me can easily attest to, I have a super Type A personality. That combined with my self-consciousness is often a recipe for disaster. Or at least some super awkward situations:)

I am going to work on this. I am going to try to stop caring so damn much about what everyone thinks of me, stop worrying about the possibility of failure, and focus on what truly makes me happy. I remember when you told me that I just need to find what makes me happy, and I think I have lost sight of that search somewhere along the way. But I am going to keep looking, and I am going to try to let go of the silly things that scare me. I am sure I won't make this transition gracefully, but I am going to do it MY way, and it will be just what I need.

Epic Fail

I am may officially be the the worst daughter ever.

When I was younger, I was so good at Mother's Day stuff. I would plan it so far in advance and be so excited to see my mom's face when she saw how hard I tried. but I am afraid this year was a bit of an epic fail. I'll blame it on the long islands last night haha.

This Mother's Day has consisted of me waking up at 4:00 am. hungover. unable to fall back asleep. Driving up to Loveland, and after at least taking my mommy for some mediocre Italian, crashing in my old bed for the rest of the day. oops. Oh well, Cam couldn''t even make it up so I still win best child award. Obviously.

Just have to make it through this week, and I am home free! I am ready for sun, and pools, and baseball, and frozen margaritas, and bike rides. I am easily satisfied.

Quiero.

I just want to get out of this funk.
I want to smile more. Laugh More.
Think of myself less. Think of others more.
Forgive some. Ask for forgiveness from others.
Appreciate this life of mine.